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Saved In Bed
By: Terry Huneke
Dear Men (especially men!) and Women of God,
The most miserable human being on the face of this earth is a born again, spirit filled, Bible toten’, Tongue talkin’, God fearin’, Devil haten’ believer who is in bondage to sexual addiction! (And any other addiction for that matter).
I carried that sexual addiction into my new life with Christ. Just like a tree in the fall when all of it’s leaves fall off. All but one, two or three seem to hang on and even a hurricane couldn’t knock them off. Not until the sap comes up through the trunk of the tree a couple of months later and goes out to the branches do those leaves finally just drop off. It is the same thing in the Spirit. As you continue to read the Word and study it, the “sap” of the Holy Spirit will permeate your entire life and that “thing” that so easily messes you up will just drop off!
It shouldn’t take a very long time for this to happen. In my case it took 30 years! 30 years of hell. I was stopping the “sap” of the Holy Spirit from doing His job, therefore my leaf remained. Thirty stinking, miserable, on-my-face-before-God begging-for-deliverance years. What was it that was stopping the flow? It wasunbelief! Men of God -- never -- and I can’t say this any stronger -- never in my life would I have identified myself with the people of Nazareth whom Jesus spoke of in Mark Chapter 6 when the Scripture says that “He could there do no mighty works because of their unbelief.”
But sure enough, that was exactly the reason for my deliverance being delayed for 30 years. Lord have mercy. You see, Jesus could not do any work in my life because of myunbelief. Unbelief in what, you ask?
Please turn with me to Romans Chapter 6 and I will show you how I received -- and am totally forevermore walking in -- complete freedom from any and all sexual perversion/bondage. Glory! Somebody shout, "Thank you Jesus!"
I heard Pastor Bill Johnson from Redding, CA say, “I can’t sin. Even if I wanted to, I can’t." I thought ...What? I must have heard him wrong. So I replayed the tape and sure enough that is exactly what he said. Now there’s a statement you’ll probably never hear again. Except from me! You’ll be hearing it for the rest of my life! I have read Romans Chapter 6 a hundred times and I have a verse by verse commentary on it. I have read it and re-read it and studied it and re-studied it, and still even though knowing what it said, I still remained bound by sexual addiction.
Romans 6:2 says: “How shall we who died to sin live any longer therein?” Good question. The answer is of course, we can’t. I read that a hundred times. I know I’ve died so why was I still sinning? Romans 6:6 says: “Knowing this that our old man was crucified with Him that the body of sin might be destroyed (inoperative/annulled/put out of business) that henceforth we should not serve sin.”
Like Paul, I also have said that “I have been crucified with Christ.” And yet I was still in bondage to habitual masturbation. Always trying to find a way to look at pornography without my wife finding out. I found it on the computer, in a liquor store magazine rack, in a video store, etc. I have spent a lot of dough-ray-me on pornography and I have been helping to build Satan's kingdom by doing so. God forgive me.
I know that there are a lot of Christians that are in this exact same bondage. From the layman to the Pastor. From molesting children, phone sex, sex with animals, homosexual encounters, bi-sexual encounters in park restrooms, exposing yourselves to men, women, boys, girls, doing all these things just so you can go masturbate looking for that orgasmic high. That’s all you think about! That’s why you’re so miserable! You can’t stop!
I’ll never forget one time I was driving to the video store to rent an x-rated video and all the way there I was telling myself that I will not do this! This is not right! I am a child of God and I will not do this! But I did it anyway. It was like Satan had a rope around my neck and was pulling me there and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I’m sure that there are some young men reading this that are saying: “Brother Terry, I am not anywhere near being that far gone! Some guys are deep into it, I’m not. Bi-sexual encounters? Never! Sex with animals? You’ve got to be kidding! Sure, I masturbate looking at magazines sometimes and I get myself off watching those adult channels but I can take it or leave it. I’m not in bondage to it.”
Well let me tell you something young man. STOP IT! NOW! Do you hear me? I SAID STOP IT! Are you listening to me? You remind me of the guy that jumped off of the Empire State building. He was flying down and about half way this guy sticks his head out the window and says: “How ya' doing?” and the guy says: “SO FAR, SO GOOD!!”. You don’t have a CLUE as to what you have allowed in your life! Not a cotton pickin' CLUE! You’ve heard about hell? Well stay on this path and I guarantee you’ll experience it! First hand. I kid you not!
Back to Romans Chapter 6. Let’s look at verse 7. This is the greatest verse in the Bible. It says: “For he that has died is freed from sin.” Did you hear that? After I heard what Pastor Johnson said ('I can’t sin.') and then I read these three scriptures again, glory to God it started to click). Then verse 11 clinched it! “Likewise CONSIDER (believe; begin believing) yourself to be dead indeed unto sin but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord.”
Praise the Lord forevermore! Glory to God! I said Glory to God! I will bless the Lord at all times, His praise shall continually be in my mouth. After 30 years it clicked! I just realized that Romans Chapter 6 is the water that God wants us to walk out on! For the very first time in my life I said, “Father, I choose to believe your word. If you said I have died to sin, then I have! If you said that I have been crucified with Christ, then I have! If you said that he who has died is free from sin, then I am! I know that when I die physically I will not sin anymore. Why? BECAUSE I’M DEAD! Now I can’t sin even if I wanted to. Why? BECAUSE I’M DEAD! Hello?
Now, when I say that I can’t sin anymore . . . I am talking about the ON PURPOSE, WILLFULLY, PRE-MEDITATED, FIGURING OUT HOW I CAN DO IT AND NOT GET CAUGHT SIN. I know the Bible says that we sin in thought, word and deed. Things we do and things we don’t do. We all probably sin a hundred times a day and don’t even realize it. But the sin I am talking about is the ON PURPOSE stuff! I can’t do that any more. Even if I wanted to. I can’t! Why? Because I’m dead. If you think I'm off the deep end, or don't know what I'm talking about, read Romans Chapter 6 again. I didn't write it. God did!
I am talking about my bondage, compulsive behavior, impure thought life being GONE! Jesus has made me free and I am free indeed. Because I chose to believe God and take Him at His Word that allowed Jesus to do a mighty work in my life. Jesus MADE me free. Notice I did not say SET me free. What’s the difference, Brother Terry? I’ll tell 'ya... To be SET free is to take the handcuffs off. To be MADE free not only means to take the handcuffs off, but it means that no one can ever put them on you again! Just as Jesus has “MADE us the righteousness of God,“ that is a forever done deal and it will never change. We serve a good God!
Men of God, for 30 years I have been a hearer of the Word and not a doer. I am now doing His Word! I am SAYING the same thing He says. As I confess OUT LOUD what He says, then that Word does what He sent it to do and it accomplishes what He said it would and it does not return to Him empty or void (Isaiah 55:10,11).
Dear precious men of God, I love you and I know the hell you’re in. I know that you think that you are “stuck” in this damnable sin for the rest of your life and that it is impossible to get out of it! I know. I know. You have been crying out to God for your deliverance. Well I just gave you the answer to your prayer. I too thought I was doomed to a life of sin. A life only me and God knew about. The private Terry was different that the public Terry every one knew. My being MADE free from sexual addiction happened when I started confessing OUT LOUD the same thing God confesses, which is His Word.
I'm going to say it again so no one misses it! My being MADE free from sexual addiction happened when I stated confessing OUT LOUD the same thing God confesses, which is His Word.
Hebrews 4:12 is right on. His Word is indeed living and powerful. After all, Romans 10:9 says that you cannot be saved until you confess with your mouth and believe in your heart. The word "SAVED" (sozo) has been reduced to beingborn again but it means much more than that! It means: deliverance, healing, wholeness, soundness. Look it up in a concordance yourself. It is just like when you throw a drowning man in the ocean a life preserver. You not only saved him from drowning but you saved him from all of the other dangers under the water!
What you guys have just read is actually the first sentence of what I really have to say. I know that God will open doors for me to go from church to church speaking to men's groups. I have a lot of teaching to share on deliverance. So if your men's group would like for me to speak, then please pray about it and see if God would have me to come there. My e-mail address is: email@example.com.
There is no reason for anyone to be addicted to anything. Thank you JESUS!
In His Service,
P.S. I would encourage you to read my wife's testimony. It is a "must read" for wives whose husbands are struggling with pornography like I was:
Staff Note: Here's a poem that ties in beautifully with Terry's precious exhortation: http://www.freedomfromaddiction.org/Truths/poem.htm
Also ... if you would like to read another powerful and INSIGHTFUL testimony of how a PREACHER discovered the liberating truth of Romans 6 ... and how he got set free from a lifetime of alcohol addiction once he got the revelation of what Romans 6 REALLY says and MEANS, click here: http://www.freedomfromaddiction.org/mtest.htm
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