DYING ON THE INSIDE - REAL LIFE STORIES - Chapter 15

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REAL LIFE STORIES

Dying On The Inside – Chapter 15

Jesus Did It!

By: Pauline

Dying on the inside. I was headed straight for hell and...

I was filled with hate, bitterness, resentment, anger, vengeance, and fear. Had I died, I would have gone to hell because no one knew what I held inside.

I was filled with all these things because of failed relationships after I became a widow. I hated men. I was even a liar and lied to get attention. On top of all that, I had a filthy mouth. I was always down and out, tired, snappy, worried, and just plain evil.

Then one day, I saw a guy I really liked. I thought whatever time I have left, I wanted that time to be with him. I wasn’t in church at the time, but I was in counseling with a pastor. The pastor told me, “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.”  (Matt: 6:33) 

He wasn’t saying what I wanted to hear, but he was telling me the truth.

I was hard-headed and went on doing whatever I wanted to do. I suffered the wrath of disobedience. I was trampled on, kicked to the curb, and taken total advantage of. My life was in total shambles and all because I didn’t “Seek Him first and His righteousness.” The relationship was a disaster. Believe it or not, the Heavenly Father was there to pick up the pieces.

The same man that I thought was gold invited me to church. I thought, “Why not? I really need God back in my life.” I knew what it was to be a Christian, but never knew what it truly meant until I entered that church. I knew this was where my feet would be planted, and it was my new home.

By the way, all that glitters is not gold. I found that out the hard way, but finally I got the message and my life has been great ever since. I still have trials and tribulations, but knowing that God is on my side, I am not worried. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  (Philippians 4:13)

One Sunday, Pastor was preaching on hate, anger, bitterness, and resentment. I took offense to the preaching because I resembled all the things he was preaching and more. Wow, how ironic that he would preach on something so deep that would touch me so personally. Then he said, “Anyone who has these things in their heart, please come forward, and God can set you free.”

Well, another thing I had was pride. There was no way I was going up there and letting people know these things about me. I was truly full of a lot of garbage, and I didn’t know how much until someone preached on it and brought it out.

Needless to say, my feet started moving me forward. There I was, tears overflowing, heart beating fast, and something lifting off of me. I didn’t think it could ever happen to me. I have never felt an inner peace as I do now.

I used to take Tylenol just to sleep, not for pain, but for sleep. No more. I sleep wonderfully at night now. The worry is gone. Evil, hate, resentment, bitterness, anger, and vengeance are all gone. Lying and a filthy mouth are gone. The pride is gone. Thank God, I am free. God is so good.

Commentary: 

Pauline’s testimony addresses some very important issues that we all can benefit from spiritually, and let’s take a look at them so we can gain some better understanding, ok?

Pauline was looking for someone to love, and be loved by.  We ALL can relate to that, can't we?  Yet what Pauline believed she needed, she couldn’t obtain, which no doubt added to her frustration with God.

The Pastor kept bringing up Matthew 6:33 to Pauline.  Paraphrasing:  “Seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and His righteousness … and everything else will eventually fall into place for you.”

Most Christians become frustrated Christians sooner or later if they are not DOING what Matthew 6:33 says to do – were you aware of that? 

Christians like to hear “that God will grant them the desires of their heart,” but they often don’t connect “Delight yourself in the Lord” to Matthew 6:33 “Seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and THEN many of the desires of your heart will be added to you.” 

If you have never clearly understood what it MEANS to “seek FIRST God’s Kingdom and His righteousness” … let’s help make that clear to you too, ok?

Helping do your part in being engaged to help fulfill The Great Commission Jesus gave the Church (“Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teach them to observe all things that I have commanded you; – See Matthew 28:19) is being engaged in God’s kingdom work. 

You can’t baptize someone until they make a decision to surrender their life to Jesus Christ.  They first need to get saved – get spiritually born again.  That’s where a book like REAL LIFE STORIES comes along.  As unsaved people read it, the Holy Spirit plants and waters seeds, convicting the reader of their need to receive God’s pardon for their sins, with the assurance that they can start experiencing some eternal life, and knowing with full assurance that heaven will be their home for eternity once they die.

Once that person has made a decision for Jesus Christ, now a lot of help is needed to help that person understand what God wants them understanding from the Holy Bible.  That requires mentors; it requires Bible teachers.  It requires that others will pray for them in their times of need.  It requires that someone will befriend them; include them in wholesome social activities.  It requires that someone give them a strong and firm word when they are being rebellious to God.  Being engaged in the discipleship process with other Christians is a HUGE undertaking, and there is no lack of NEED out there folks.

Satan tries to provide us every possible “reason” to stay away from a local church fellowship.  Probably more “Christians” stay away from a local church in America than those who are regularly connected to one.  Why is THAT?  It's because they have allowed offenses of one kind or another to isolate them from a local fellowship of Christian believers.  The less you hang around other Christians, the less you’ll be engaged in the discipleship process more than likely.

So…if you aren’t spending hardly any time seeking God about how he wants to use YOU to help be engaged in soul winning…you are NOT “seeking God’s Kingdom FIRST.”  Secondly, if you could care less about being used of God to help other Christians who are struggling, and all you can focus on is your own needs or your own situation…you are NOT seeking God’s Kingdom FIRST. 

God’s Kingdom here on earth is God’s people.  God’s Kingdom isn’t in buildings; it isn’t in the political structure of our country; it isn’t on Wall Street.  God's Kingdom is the people who make up God's corporate Church - the Body of Christ.  It's not a church denomination either.  It is individual born again Christian believers. God’s Kingdom is God’s Spirit being allowed FULL ACCESS inside people.  God’s Spirit will only reside inside those who put Jesus Christ not only Savior and Lord of their lives, but ALSO desire to follow His commandments.  One of his clearest commands was “To Go and help make disciples…”

Let’s make this very clear about God.  When you and I start engaging ourselves in what pleases God FIRST, God begins to become more fully engaged in giving us what pleases US, as long as it is healthy for us, and as long as it incorporates His will for our lives.  Just because you believe you need a husband doesn't always mean God thinks you need a husband.  (God may very well want you freed up from the friction that comes in marriage, so you can be solely devoted to "the work of the Kingdom."  Or - you may not desire a wife or husband after all the abuse you've suffered from in the past, but God may WANT you to have a spouse as a teammate to help you fulfill His will for your life).   

Inversely, when all we can think about is to how we can get God to give us what we desire, and somehow assume we’re exempt from “seeking FIRST His Kingdom work” …we are essentially slamming a blessing door between us and God.  

Saying it this way:  If you want God’s maximized favor to rest on your life, you are going to have to diligently seek God about how He would have YOU be engaged in soul winning to one degree or another, and helping disciple fellow believers. 

Those two endeavors are two of the three important issues of Matthew 6:33.  There remains one more important issue we have yet to address.  “Seeking His righteousness…” also plays a HUGE part in moving God to grant us some of the desires of our heart.

“Seeking His righteousness” means to actively pursue RIGHT RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.  Right relationship with God means to get one’s life right with God.  Right relationship with God means to OBEY God.  Right relationship with God means to OBEY His commands as they are recorded in the New Testament Bible. 

Gulp.  You mean that if I’m engaging in sin, God may withhold his favor from me?  Yep.  God doesn’t bless sin.  He forgives us when we confess our sin to Him, but He is not inclined to bless sin.  The more often we engage in sin, odds increase GREATLY that the door of favor is closing between us and God.

God removes favor from us to get our attention – not because He doesn’t delight in blessing us.  Normal parents don’t bless their children when their children are constantly being disobedient.  They withhold blessing to different degrees to get the child’s attention.

Salvation is FREE, but posturing to receive God’s favor requires GREAT EFFORT!  To posture ourselves to be in a position to receive maximized favor from God, we need to strive DAILY to be in “right-relationship” with Him.  That translates into: Obedience to Him in all areas of our life.

We have used one of the testimonies from the REAL LIFE STORIES testimony book in this writing.  God is using this power-packed book to plant and water seeds in people around the WORLD.  Souls are coming to Jesus Christ because 98 born again Christians from a church in Indiana were obedient to the Lord in writing out their testimonies and letting them be put into a book.  God couldn’t use their testimonies until they took the time to write them, and THEN give them away without charge. 

FACT:  God can’t use YOUR written testimony until you write it out for Him to use.  Your testimony will never be found in a book that God is using to win lost souls, until you write it out and make it available to God.  Your testimony will never be read on an Internet site until you write it out for God to use.  Copies of your testimony from off an Internet website will never get printed and used as tracts until you write out your testimony and submit it to a testimony website.  What do you plan on doing about that?  Don’t care?  The door of God’s maximized favor may well be closing right in front of you and you may not even be realizing it. 

Pastors … don’t YOU care if a REAL LIFE STORIES testimonies book never gets published in your community?  A REAL LIFE STORIES book of testimonies from people from YOUR church fellowship?  Let some other church do it, not YOURS?  What if God wants YOUR church to be the FIRST to do it in your community?  Could God’s door of favor be closing in front of you, and you don’t even realize it?

Folks…things are winding down (evolving quickly compared to what we have known it in the past) here on planet Earth.  Many Christians are and will be falling away from their love and devotion to Jesus Christ, as 2 Thessalonians 2:3 declares, but many NEW SOULS will be coming to Jesus Christ right up to the return of Jesus Christ.  You can be well assured the primary reason why Christians will be “falling away” is because they were NOT “seeking FIRST God’s Kingdom.”  Anyone truly seeking God’s Kingdom FIRST…God will NOT let them fall away from the faith.  They are much too valuable to Him to let them slip away.  But Christians who are only into Christianity to be blessed of God without doing their part in helping EXPAND God’s Kingdom in the lives of people…well…God has never been too excited about selfish people who could care less about what is important to God FIRST.

Well…this message is stinging a lot of you reading it.  But if you’ll get past the pain of the sting, and decide once and for all you are going to live each day you have left on this planet to be fully engaged in helping establish God’s REIGN in the lives of lost souls…you He will take very good care of, no matter how much turbulence breaks forth across the land right up until Jesus Christ returns for you, or your heart stops and you are transported to Him in heaven.

Being engaged FIRST in helping establish God's Kingdom does not promise us utopia here at this time; let us soberly realize that.  As a matter of act, it most likely will bring greater demonic attacks in your life.  However...what it WILL DO is give you peace and confidence that no matter how much evil is allowed to break forth across the land, God will "have your back."  God WILL provide for your every need (not every WANT) to stay fully engaged in His Kingdom work.

The number one SECRET to have peace in your heart during troubled times and to have faith that God is going to see you through to the end...is to be fully engaged in "seeking His Kingdom work FIRST."

Multitudes of believers are being sifted right now.  They are being sifted by GOD.  God is putting the squeeze on them, and it is not fun in the least.  He wants them to come to the full realization that they cannot trust anything in this world above HIM.  What He wants every one of us to realize is that HE is our PROVIDER, PROTECTOR, and LIFE-SUSTAINER in ways we may never have experienced all that much since being Christians. 

Great emotional pain is being experienced by many, many Christians these days, because God is using the trials of life to see who is going to sell out to Him (His Kingdom priorities) above everything else...and who is not.   For those who sell out to His Kingdom priorities...rewards beyond comprehension await them in glory. 

-- Norm Rasmussen, Precious Testimonies


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"And this gospel of the kingdom [Jesus died for sinners] shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come." (Quote from Jesus Himself: Matthew 24:14).

Consider how many children in "all the nations" have never heard YET what Jesus accomplished for THEM at the cross? PLEASE HELP SPREAD THE GOOD NEWS TO THE LITTLE CHILDREN!

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