By: Kathy

Overwhelming fear, Impending Doom. Sometimes I felt like I was going to jump right out of my skin.

This is your lot in life: Just Suck It Up!

Thirty years of depression and sever anxiety was my lot. I couldn't stop it. Counseling, anti-depressants, and anxiety medications could not stop me from feeling like I was going to jump right out of my skin. I spent thirty years taking pills just so I could go to sleep at night, and a lot of the time they didn't help me rest. I would wake and sit straight up with an overwhelming fear of impending doom. I would wonder, 'Are my girls okay? Are they hurting/ Are they suffering because of something I did or did not do?'

I often convinced myself that something terrible was going to happen. My heart would race, and my thoughts were filled with unbearable images of bad things happening to my loved ones. The days were much of the same: worry, worry, and more worry. I'd try to convince myself that others had it much worse than I did, that this was my lot in life, and I should just 'Suck It Up.'

Then there were the pity parties I would throw for myself. I made myself and everyone around me, the people I loved the most, miserable. I expected everyone to join in on my pity parties. When they didn't, I would become very mad and hurt. When my family that loved me very much tried to console me, I let my pride stand in the way. I was in control and wanted it to stay that way. If I was going to accept help and love from others, it would be on my terms and that was how I was in control. Something that I fought tooth and nail for was control over everything, pity parties included.

Now ... 'I am free!' I asked Jesus into my life to forgive me of my sins, to be Lord of my life, and to be the one in control of my life. No more medication! Peace, joy, and love now fill my heart and my thoughts. Thank you Jesus! God is in control and I praise Him.

Do you want to be free? Do you want to be relieved of the guilt and anxiety of the life of a sinner? All you must do is ask Jesus to come into your life. He is waiting with open arms to embrace you, to comfort you, and to protect you. Ask the Lord to help you, and He will. Find a good Christian based church where the Word of God is spoken. One that can teach you how to pray and read the Bible. A place in which to worship with a pastor that preaches the truth, the Word of God. It is the truth that will set you free.

Now before I sleep, I pray and fellowship with God. If I do wake in the night, it is to hear the Lord telling me that He is with me, will never leave me, and that His love is everlasting. I have not had a restless night since I let Him into my heart.

I prayed and asked God to give me a church, and He did. That church is Jubilee Worship Center. A place for new beginnings.  Love and happiness is what I have found with God's help. Praise God and Thank You Jesus!

Real Life Stories - Chapter 22:

Overwhelming Fear - Impending Doom



Dear Reader - are you at peace with God?  If not, you can be.  Do you know what awaits you when you die?  You can have the assurance from God that heaven will be your home, if you would like to be certain.  Either Jesus Christ died for yours sins, or He didn't (He did!).  Are you prepared to stand before God on the Judgment Day and tell Him that you didn't need the shed blood of Jesus Christ on the Cross to have your sins forgiven and get in right-standing with God?  We plead with you ... please don't make such a tragic mistake.

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