I was lonely and scared. I knew there was something very important missing in my life. But what was it?
I grew up in a good home with great parents and six older siblings. I was the youngest in our family. We were a typical middle-class family. We went to church every Sunday. Dad worked, mom was a housewife, and my siblings were all educated, successful people. I was a pretty normal child, pretty well behaved, a decent student, and involved in cheerleading and basketball.
Then, at age 11, I began to make some pretty terrible choices. My friends and I started experimenting with alcohol. We went from sneaking a beer once or twice a month to getting wasted every weekend. Sometimes we even drank before school.
One time during a party at my friend's house, my best friend and I shared an entire bottle of rum and got alcohol poisoning. We fell down the stairs, passed out, and woke up in our own vomit. That was not enough to stop us.
I got to a point when alcohol alone could no longer fill the void that I felt in my life. I began to look for other ways to fill the void. When I was 13, I threw a huge party at my parents' house. Their house got trashed, one of their cars was damaged, and there was beer all over the place. Three months later, when I got ungrounded, I got arrested for shoplifting. I continued to make poor choices. I knew right from wrong, yet I chose wrong every time. I began looking for love in all the wrong ways. I began by flirting way too much. Which, when mixed with alcohol, led to sex with whoever took advantage of me while I passed out.
So there I was, 13 years old, with a criminal record and parents who were devastated by the things their teenage daughter had done. They didn't even know the half of it. I continued to do wrong. By the time I was 16, I was in a pretty bad relationship and had also added some drug use to my list of bad decisions. The guy I was involved with was a drug dealer, arrested several times, and pretty violent. I thought I was in love, and against my parents begging and pleading, I continued to sneak around begging my friends to take me to see him.
Then I found out I was pregnant. This was a huge wakeup call for me. I knew I had to stop being so selfish because now I was responsible for someone else's life. I stopped drinking and stopped smoking cigarettes and marijuana. I started growing up. I severed ties with my boyfriend, with my parents strong encouragement. It was at this very lonely, scary time that I knew there was something very important missing in my life, but what was it?
After the birth of my son, I got a full-time job. Through this job, I met someone who was different from all the people I had hung out with over the last 6 years. He was kind, quiet, polite, and just different. We began dating, and on our third date, he took me to church with him.
It was then that the light finally came on. That is what I had been missing. That night, I made a connection with God. I discovered that I needed a personal relationship with God instead of looking for relationships with guys or other bad influences.
God filled me with His love and changed my life from that night on. Friend, if you're lonely, if you're scared, if you have made wrong choices, if you have something missing in your life like I did... Call out for help right now. Call on the one that turned my life around. Call on Jesus.
I WAS LONELY AND SCARED
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